The sun had kissed the day goodnight. I sat in our well-loved, blue recliner, trying not to get my toe stuck in one of its’ rips while I listened to the voice on the other end of the receiver. My brain could hardly process the opportunity prayerfully being presented to me. I hit the red circle positioned at the bottom of my IPhone to end the conversation. I sat bewildered. Could this be you, Lord? Are you opening a door? Is this the time or are you planting a seed for future opportunities?
I spent the week processing the ministry opportunity laid before me. I invested the days in conversation with the Lord, asking for answer through scripture references. I sought the counsel of a few seasoned believers and leaders, a handful of close friends, my mom and most importantly, my husband. Collectively, we positioned ourselves at the feet of the Lord begging Him for clarity.
To trod the existing path before me felt safe and comfortable. I had a sense of control because I mostly knew what to expect. To embrace this new prospect created a trifling sense of anxiety because I couldn’t anticipate how the stones would scatter to create a navigable path.
What if? What if I am not enough?
“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
What if I crumble under the pressure? What if?
“You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.” Isaiah 26:3
Sifting through the wise counsel, scripture verses and the inner directing of the Holy Spirit concluding incessant prayer, I knew that this opportunity was indeed the working of His hand. Before I made the call to officially state my, “yes,” I sat down at our kitchen table, peeled back the pages of my Study Bible and read about God’s commissioning of Joshua after the death of Moses in Joshua chapter one.
While reading, I noticed a pattern in the discussion between God and Joshua. God exhorts Joshua, “arise, go over this Jordan.” He then extends promises to Joshua, “every place that the sole of your foot will tread upon I have given to you as I promised Moses,” “no man shall be able to stand before you all the days of your life,” “I will be with you. I will not leave or forsake you.” Yet again, God exhorts Joshua two times, “Be strong and courageous.” He then instructs Joshua, “be careful to do according to the law…do not turn from it. This book of the law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it.” Once again, God promises if Joshua does these things that He “will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success.” Finally, He exhorts Joshua once more, “be strong and courageous,” coupled with the resounding promise, “the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
I rest in the confidence that He is commissioning me into this new season. In the moments I may be tempted to bend my ear toward any opposing opinions of man, I know, that as I rest in the palm of His care, He will shepherd me with exhortation, promises, instruction, promises, exhortations and promises. He won’t lead me where He hasn’t been or where He won’t go. When I grow weary, tired or dare to doubt, I know to lean into Him and dance to the song He alone has written for me.
CBS (Community Bible Study) Tulsa, I look forward to working alongside each of you to advance the walls of His kingdom as your ATD (Associate Teaching Director).