Worthy of the Calling

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While wrestling through this last year of health obscurities, someone loaned me the book Hope Heals by Katherine and Jay Wolfe. Making my way through the book, Addison gained curiosity about this couple’s story. Their story and their determination to … Continued

Seeds

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I have been told that if I plant a watermelon seed from my fresh slice that a producing watermelon plant would take root. I’ve heard the same thing about seeds from apples. Our youngest, adventurous, let nothing be wasted boy … Continued

All things new

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Navigating the last six months of a medical illness with our daughter has been both draining and bolstering. There have been days along this journey that the most I could conjure was to make advocating phone calls to doctors, engage … Continued

Clay Pots

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“I can count a million times People asking me how I Can praise You with all that I’ve gone through The question just amazes me Can circumstances possibly Change who I forever am in You” Lyrics from “Bring the Rain” … Continued

Hope

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When we moved to Oklahoma in 2014, it was a season of sunshine. The first two years seemed to be testimony followed by testimony of God lavishing upon us great gifts. At one point, I called a mentor, and now … Continued

Power

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The last six months, I haven’t known what to write. I have missed sitting down at the computer once a week, putting words to what I was learning. Yet, I felt it was time to process and lean in. I … Continued

What We Know

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I fell asleep with a burdened heart. Stumbling out of bed the next morning, I still fought grief, fear and hopelessness. The weight of my circumstances produced emotions that threatened to overcome truth. I knew I needed to read Scripture … Continued

The Land Between

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This summer I was asked to write an article for our church’s women’s ministry monthly newsletter. The article was published this week and can be seen here, on page four.    

Naaman

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It’s been said, that some of the greatest lies are sung during Sunday morning worship. Just this morning, I was singing along to the lyrics, “Set a fire down in my soul that I can’t contain and I can’t control. … Continued

Fire and Sacrifice

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I was preparing dinner one night when Pandora played the song, Fill Me Up by Kim Walker-Smith and Jesus Culture. The first words sung were, “You provide the fire and I’ll provide the sacrifice.” A few weeks ago in our … Continued

Good

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I pulled the Toyota into Southwest’s unloading area for departing flights. My heart was rapidly thumping and I worked to control my breathing. I was getting ready to send my baby boy on a flight with Grandma. My older two … Continued

Courage

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I sat under the shade of the canopy, feet dug into the sand and watched my boys play in the ocean with their second cousins.  It wasn’t long before I peered over my sunglasses to see my oldest boy, climbing … Continued

Humility

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“Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.” Ephesians 4:2 “Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.” Colossians 3:12 I read about leadership, listen … Continued

Advice

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In my young life, I have had the privilege two times, to extend written words of wisdom to young women graduating high school. This last weekend, I pulled out my large, yellow legal pad from the contents filed on the … Continued

Doubts

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The last several weeks our Sunday school class has been studying through the book of Judges.  The cyclic pattern of the Israelites behavior is predictable, God provides for them, they forget about Him and His goodness and choose to do … Continued

Silence

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For my girl’s 12th birthday, Matt and I took Addison and three of her friends to watch the newly released movie, “God’s Not Dead 2.” At the conclusion of the movie, it was stated, “Silence is the enemy of truth.” … Continued

Tornado

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Last spring, our family took cover from our first tornado. Peering out the window, we could see the clouds had become a thick, green curtain from sky to soil. The winds raged, the water pounded and hail, the size of … Continued

View

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We bundled up in several layers of clothing, strapped on the heavy, awkward helmets, straddled the seats of the four wheelers and rode into the trails of the Colorado mountains. My previous experiences four wheeling had been roaming through acres … Continued

Words

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I wouldn’t ever label myself as a person with an affinity for words. Sure, I like to use words (too much, some might add) in conversation and writing, but I don’t have a deep well I draw from, nor do … Continued

Plans

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Our girl hadn’t played basketball since the Third grade. Our first year as Okies, she discovered that many of her new friends were on a team together. Once Matt and I investigated registration, late fees had been implemented and the … Continued

Yours

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In this season of Lent, I am constantly reminded of all that Jesus Christ gave for me when He willingly volunteered to take my place on the cross. He was beaten, spit upon, ridiculed, looked down on, unbearable to lays … Continued

Horizon

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We had been anticipating this moment for more than a decade. The Lord crossed our paths in the fall of 2003 when Bobby and I worked together at Commonwealth Christian School as middle school teachers. His wife, Jennifer, and their … Continued

Invested

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Six of us sat around a rectangular table, eating dinner, laughing, sharing advice and preparing our hearts for goodbye. Our individual hearts were tender and collectively we were aching for the loss that would be felt when Drew and her … Continued

Pathway

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The path beneath the four wheeler was bumpy and sometimes even jolting. I lodged myself behind my dad as we navigated their ninety some acres. I tucked my hands inside my sleeves as the constant breeze shot a chill through … Continued

His Word

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This past Sunday, Matt, Addison and I had the opportunity to share with our Oklahoma church family about the traumatic fire incident we endured with Addison over three years ago. After narrating the facts of the event, each of us … Continued

Gifts

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Matt and I are continually trying to instill the thinking within in our children that it is important to clean up after yourself. We talk about having responsibility for your things, your space, your messes, your chores, your attitudes and … Continued

I AM

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This Wednesday I will give my first teaching to the CBS Tulsa audience of women (though I gave a run through of it to part of Leader’s Council last Wednesday). Preparing for this teaching, I have struggled with how to … Continued

Training

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I sat, hunched over, on the floor, in the back right corner of the room. My back was supported by the wall and my vision of anything or anyone remaining in the room was blocked by a black-skirted table. I … Continued

Feathers

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There are days that the responsibilities of motherhood, wifedom and housekeeper are suffocating. There isn’t any one thing about each of those roles that is depleting, but the fact that there will always be clothes to fold, dishes to wash, … Continued

Next Generation

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“We will not hide these truths from our children; we tell the next generation about the glorious deeds of the Lord, about his power, and his mighty wonders.” Psalm 78:4 NLT My daughter had just returned home from her Jr. … Continued

Ride

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I stood on the sidelines supervising my older two children as they made their way through the winding line of waiting. It wouldn’t be too long before it was their turn to sit secure in the cart of the roller … Continued

Race

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I physically rolled off my side of the bed early Saturday morning so that I had enough time to be alert, eat breakfast and dress for the race. On the one day of the week allotted for sleep in, this … Continued

Alongside

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“A lot of people have gone further than they thought they could because someone else thought they could.” Unknown I spent a few days coming alongside my lifelong friend who is now the radiant mother of three. She now mothers … Continued

ATD

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The sun had kissed the day goodnight. I sat in our well-loved, blue recliner, trying not to get my toe stuck in one of its’ rips while I listened to the voice on the other end of the receiver. My … Continued

Devotional Entry

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I have decided to use this week’s blog post as an opportunity to submit one of the entries I am considering including in the devotional book I am writing. I would love to read your your feedback.   ORPHANS “Many … Continued

Wings

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“Your time as a caterpillar has expired. Your wings are ready.” Quote from philgoodlife Tomorrow morning I will physically hold the hand of my five year and nine year old as I walk them into the brown bricked building for … Continued

Thoughts from 2011

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I have been thinking about this post from 2011 and felt compared to re-share it on my blog this week. Check it out http://wp.me/s4k4FU-manure

A Vessel and A Witness

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We were all huddling together after an evening of intense worship. Melodies were still projecting in the background of our ensuing conversation. A few people were meandering toward the exits, several firmly stood at their seat with arms extending toward … Continued

Dancing

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You steady me Slow and sweet, we sway Take the lead and I will follow Finally ready now To close my eyes and just believe That You won’t lead me Where You don’t go I sit down to tap out … Continued

Timing

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I sat in the room anticipating sharing an hour of prayer with a few others who are equally endeavoring to implement a Community Bible Study in Owasso. The mayhem of summer time schedules gifted me an unplanned hour of solitude … Continued

Revisiting

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The post below I wrote in 2011. It has been on my mind lately, therefore, I decided to re-post. http://amberhudler.com/faithfulness/  

Praise

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Neglecting to keep guard of my heart, it becomes effortless to indulge the life of a joyless martyr. I sat hunched over in the plush, yet worn, faded blue recliner in the corner of our room with my feet tucked … Continued

Comfort

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Reluctantly, I peeled my eyes open this morning, rolled out of bed and stumbled toward my wooden, yet cushioned study chair in our office. I don’t particularly care for early mornings and I would not characterize myself as a “morning … Continued

Grace

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Wisping on the winds of these last months gone by, with a half-cocked smile on his face, Matt has frequently uttered in my direction, “Who are you?” I have been scouring eclectic home décor ideas, tasting and drinking flavored coffee, … Continued

Chance

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“God doesn’t give you he people you want, he gives you the people you need. To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you the person you were meant to be.” anonymous We … Continued

Reasonableness

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“Let your reasonableness be known to everyone.” Philippians 4:5 ESV My dad has often said to me that being a parent will teach me more about my relationship with God than most anything else. The longer I travel this dusty, … Continued

Instinct

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“When I cannot feel (emphasis mine) the faith of assurance, I live by the fact of God’s faithfulness.” Matthew Henry Meandering around the landscape of our backyard, Matt found a nest of Killdeer bird eggs resting in a carefully crafted … Continued

Oklahoma

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We landed a year ago, today. A. YEAR. AGO. The reality of that statement is incomprehensible to me. In some ways, it seems we turned our backs on Virginia’s landscape and feebly strode down the hall toward the plane entrance, … Continued

Cost

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I have spent this last school year studying and digesting 1 and 2 Corinthians alongside many other women participating in the CBS (Community Bible Study) Tulsa group. We peruse through the last of the study today. Our final homework questions … Continued

Fences

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Around our daughter’s first birthday in Richmond, we decided it was time to construct and secure a privacy fence around our quarter of an acre yard. Matt diligently figured the pieces of wood needed, nails, cement and the cost of … Continued

Eleven

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I was 23 the day my named changed to Mommy. Following a little over 5 hours of labor, Addison made her way into the world. The first sounds we heard were shortened, labored cries. The room held a curiosity than … Continued

Sowing

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“The point is this: whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly and whoever sows bountifully will also reap bountifully.” 2 Corinthians 9:6 I often think of reaping and sowing in context of those things seen. If I sow generosity with … Continued

Introspective

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I lay next to him feeling the heat of his body next to mine. His disappearing, chubby cheeks lay near my aged ones. My heart felt as though it might burst with all the love I have for this baby … Continued

Bittersweet

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I spent most of the day reading theology based literature, listening to worship songs, praying over a list of needs from friends, refraining from certain luxuries that I might clearly discern the Holy Spirit heaving breaths of life into my … Continued

Seasons

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 “I will make my dwelling among them and walk among them, and I will be their God, and they shall be my people.” 2 Corinthians 6:16b We sat in the Chick-fil-a parking lot nibbling on lunch between conversations. I propped … Continued

Loneliness

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“God is faithful; you were called by Him into fellowship with His Son, Jesus Christ our Lord.”  1 Corinthians 1:9 HCSB “If we say, ‘We have fellowship with Him,’ yet we walk in darkness, we are lying and are not … Continued

Blind

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“I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; … Continued

Unlikely

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“God calls us in unlikely seasons to unlikely places to reach unlikely people.” This was quote that a friend shared with me from a sermon she had once heard. She shared it with me when the option to entertain a … Continued

Tenacity

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Sitting here this morning, staring at the computer screen, frustration takes hold. With the crowing of the rooster, I have been diligently waking up during the weekdays for the last several weeks in an effort to spend some time with … Continued

Intercession

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Worship began and I found myself at the altar. My knees tucked into my chest, my arms folded beneath my bowed head. The tears and the prayers were a constant flow. At one point a woman positioned herself to my … Continued

Next

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When I have solidified the Lord calling me to step out in faith in an area my feet have yet to trod, I often ask, “What next”? As I have stated here, this past December the Lord confirmed to me … Continued

Bounty

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Riding shotgun I peered into the mirror fastened within the visor. His head was tucked over his right shoulder, lips protruding toward the floor, eyes moist and cast toward the floorboard. Earlier in the week he received a birthday party … Continued

Shield

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Setting out to write this devotional I was reminded of one of the most valuable tools given to me as a Junior High student. I was asked by a person who was in full time ministry if I would consider … Continued

Monotony

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My soul was weary. My body tired. My thoughts downright rebellious. I felt I could take no more. I wanted any other responsibilities than the same ones He has given me the last decade of my life. Looking around the … Continued

Binder

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There is a black, three ring notebook that sits abandoned on the furthest bottom right hand shelf in our office. I often catch it in my peripheral vision when working or wandering in the office. There are moments when my … Continued

34

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“…in the future, when your children ask you, ‘What do these stones mean?’ tell them that the flow of the Jordan was cut off before the ark of the covenant of the Lord. When it crossed the Jordan, the waters … Continued

Indebted

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We stood alongside the bleachers looking on as we watched the team before us play out their tournament game waiting for our turn to play the championship game. My tight curls sprang close to my face positioning themselves as though … Continued

Requite

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Over the years it has been difficult for me to tell people “I love you” or to label someone with the title “best friend”. It isn’t that I don’t love people or that I don’t deeply value the ones the … Continued

Start

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One of the most arduous struggles of writing can be the accountability of living what you pen. It has been almost three weeks since I walked away from my gym membership knowing that in part it was because He was … Continued

Surprise

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For weeks we had been planning the ultimate surprise for our three kids. Matt and I vigilantly guarded our conversations behind closed doors. Yet, in the last 36 hours of their arrival, we almost ruined the secret we had been … Continued

Tender

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2 am this morning, my thigh high baby boy drug himself to the doorway of our room, snuggled in his blue and red footie PJ’s, face sunken and uttering the words, “Momma, I think I am going to throw up.” … Continued

Unchartered

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Our feet thumped on the up beat of the 32 count measures of the music. The rhythm of my body had gotten lost somewhere amidst the lyrics of Michael Jackson’s Billy Jean and Justin Timberlake’s Mirrors; choreography had taken over. … Continued

Origin

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I sporadically read an array of blog posts, online articles, books and on occasion, magazine excerpts. I read to gain insight, perspective, to improve, for enjoyment and to support those I respect. Yet, sometimes when I read I allow self-doubt … Continued

Parenting

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Shortly after we moved here we learned how seriously Okies take sports; youth through professional. In our church hunt, we visited at least three different churches each of which mentioned something from the pulpit about the local football, basketball or … Continued

Marriage

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I stood in front of the large media room with the projection screen displayed behind me and my body facing the girls. Looking around the room I saw faces of girls having just entered middle school, some completing their final … Continued

Mask

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I stood in front of a small group of Jr. High and Sr. High girls this weekend wearing a butterfly mask decorated with multi colored sequins. I began speaking to them about hypocrisy. “Hypocrisy is much like this mask. I … Continued

Forest

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I have heard it said, “we tend to miss the forest of eternity for the trees of our circumstances”. This has been true of me. It has been true of me in parenting, in wifedom, as a believer, as a … Continued

Wisdom

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The last few weeks I have spent the early mornings, late evenings and a few spare moments in between preparing for the girls retreat weekend I will be speaking at next weekend Oct 4th and 5th in Groesbeck, TX. The … Continued

Mommas

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I know that there is no shortage of blogs, articles and books on motherhood. Yet, it remains heavy on my heart to write a post to encourage mommas of little ones. My kids are 10, 8, and almost 5yrs. I … Continued

Intentional

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I have been thinking about ways that I can be intentional. Intentional in living my life in a way that His light inside me shines. Toward the end of the curriculum for Beth Moore’s Esther study she documents a time … Continued

Gifts

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During my junior and senior high school years I remained active in sports and our church’s youth group. One of the Bible verses I often clung to was 1 Timothy 4:12, this is how it read in my Bible January … Continued

Accountability

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We are adjusting surprisingly well to our 1,000 mile move from Virginia. The first (almost) two weeks of school are underway for Addison and Caden. Matt has officially been functioning under his new job title for just shy of six … Continued

Providence

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Just before lunch last Wednesday the kids and I dropped off their North Carolina grandparents at our Tulsa airport. We found ourselves caught in the swarm of more change, saying more goodbyes and bracing ourselves for what was to come. … Continued

Beginnings

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“Every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end.” These were lyrics to a song sung by Semisonic the year I graduated high school. They are lyrics that have been humming in the outskirts of my thoughts the last few … Continued

Blessings

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Tomorrow marks the third month since our arrival in Oklahoma. Our feet touched Oklahoma soil sometime after midnight on May 5th. The kids and I moved around in zombie like fashion; emotionally depleted and physically spent. Matt’s veins flooded with … Continued

Retirement

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I have been missing my Grandaddy as of late. He has been celebrating his homecoming with Jesus six years ago March 28th. I’m not sure what triggers the pains of missing his physical presence in my life, but I am … Continued

Faithfulness

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My kiddos returned with my parents on Friday. Of course, they had a memorable time and are anxious to do it again. Matt was able to spend several of the 12 days with me to celebrate the graciousness of God … Continued

Anthem

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I walked to the driver’s side of the truck and opened the passenger door behind the driver. I hugged my kiddos’ necks, gave them each a $5 dollar bill to spend any way they chose over the next 12 days … Continued

Wrestling

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For several days last week I mentally wrestled with a decision I had made since moving to Oklahoma. The decision was rooted in prayer, multiple pro and con lists, conversation upon conversation, but mostly in faith. Faith is the “unsafe” … Continued

Thirst

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“Our souls are thirsty and ravenous vacuums. If we fail to understand how to fill our souls with spiritual nourishment, we will forever be triggered to numb our longings with our temporary physical pleasures…this issue is bigger than emotions; it’s … Continued

Heart

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We have lived in the Owasso community a month this Friday. We have spent our days unpacking boxes and placing items, making phone calls to set up services and change our address from VA to OK. We have been engaging … Continued

Choices

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Several of his fingers are swollen. Scratches tattoo his arms and legs. Thorns have made their homes in the soles of his shoes. From Day two in our OK home my man has been pruning and discarding the limbs from … Continued

Promises

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We were scouring our first Oklahoma home for anything left behind. We opened up the pull out bed tucked under the couch cushions, lifted the bed skirt of our king size bed, opened end table drawers, looked behind doors and … Continued

Reset

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We are on day 15 in the hotel. This experience has not been as bad as you would expect. Yes, we have had bouts of sickness and moments of surrender. Yet, mostly it has been a safe haven for our … Continued

Conqueror

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“Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword?…No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.” Romans 8:35 & … Continued

Virginia

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We board the plane today. My heart is full. God has been gracious to us in writing our Virginia chapter. Matt and I moved here as newlyweds. We never dreamed we would live here longer than two years. Twelve years … Continued

Home

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I sit here this early morning waiting for the packers of our Lockberry Ridge Loop home to arrive. The days have come and gone faster than I could process each of them. My thoughts can hardly digest all the emotion, … Continued

Home

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It had taken over 24 hours for our feet to touch Tulsa soil. The airline had multiple delays due to mechanical issues and a sick pilot. By the time we reached our red Fiot from the rental car company, my … Continued

Sold

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I was studying in preparation to teach on the last half of Ephesians chapter Three when I came across Matthew 21:22 “and whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive, if you have faith.” A cross referencing verse states “…if … Continued

But

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“And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:19 We have spent the last several weeks painting, fixing, organizing, moving, and de-cluttering in an effort to get the house … Continued

Fingerprints

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We sat across the table from one another indulging in food from one of our favorite restaurants, Hunan Garden. We were laughing and teary eyed as we vented about current life and reminisced memories past. These are the interactions I will miss. My dear … Continued

Diving

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My eyes were groggy, my hair standing in every direction on its own, I tucked my feet underneath the weight of my body, flipped open the notebook and began to write on the college ruled paper parts of my college … Continued

Crux

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The lyrics of the song, “Waiting Here For You” by Christy Knockles hum as a backdrop to my personal story as of late. “If faith can move the mountains Let the mountains move We come with expectation Waiting here for you, I’m waiting here … Continued

IF

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I remembering sitting in a small school desk in the front of the room listening to my sixth grade sunday school teacher ask, “what is the biggest word in the dictionary?” Of course, we, in our attempts to crack the … Continued

Training

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During one of our driving stints this holiday season, I listened to a sermon via podcast that was entitled “Trying vs Training”. The pastor spoke about the major difference between the two: trying=will power where training=self control. We can “will” … Continued

Birthday

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This time of year proves to be reflective. Of course, because of the approaching new year, yet also for me as it is also the celebration of another year of life. Contrary to popular opinion, a birthday woven amidst the … Continued

Matt

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It has been fourteen years since we met. I returned to my freshman dorm room that was settled in the upper classman dorm building. My roommate and I landed there as a result of the overflow of freshman our entrance year.  I … Continued

Know

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I sat tightly folded into the plane seat against the covered window. The sun barely sung through the cloud coverings as it was early morning and snowy weather. I had arrived on a plane much like this with my youngest, … Continued

Conflicted

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The Christmas season can be a conflicting time for me as a parent. As much as the Internet and technology can be resourceful tools, the double edged sword is that it can also be inhibiting. Too often, I read blogs, FB … Continued

Meaningful

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The days had been blurring together and the harder I seemed to attempt to push through the darkness crowding in, my attempts continued to end in failure. From time to time it seems that the walls threaten to cave in … Continued

Waiting

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“Wait for the Lord; be strong and let your heart take courage; yes, wait for the Lord.” Psalm 27:14 NASB     I have been rearranging and redecorating our abode the last few weeks. I have been thinking and searching … Continued

Rain

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My oldest boy strolled through the front door somewhat downcast in the way he carried himself. He was bored and frustrated because no one would play with him and it was raining. My momma’s heart ached as I peered out … Continued

Caden

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At our oldest son’s baby dedication at church we were asked to pick a life verse for him. I have often heard and believed the verses about how we are intricately woven together in our mother’s wombs, how each of our days … Continued

Intro to Bible Study

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“For whatever was written in former days was written for our instruction, that through endurance and through the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope.” Romans 15:4 ESV             Life is full of crossroads. I cannot count how many times I … Continued

Intro to Prayer

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My heart tends to constantly bear the burden of equipping God’s children.  When I hear the word discipleship, my heart starts palpitating to a quicker rhythm.  I know that this is in part because of how God wired me and … Continued

Milestone

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I remember my AP Lit teacher stating to the class the popular adage, “what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger.” In the book of 2 Corinthians chapter 12 Paul references that he was given a “thorn in the flesh”, to … Continued

Martyrdom

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Periodically throughout the summer my children and I have been reading about the ancient church.  Several times, I have had to pause my reading because I could no longer choke back the tears.  The men and women who laid the foundation … Continued

Watchman

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In some down time during his work week in Tulsa, my man writes,”Ugly storm went through here last night.  Woke me up at 11:30.  Looked out window wind was blowing rain sideways.  Signs blowing everywhere, street lights flapping in the … Continued

Marriage

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Approximately a week and half until departure I received a phone call inquiring whether I could attend church camp with the youth of our church as a chaperone.  Youth camp provided many fun memories and opportunities of drawing closer to others and … Continued

Deeper

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                              The rain insisted on falling from the swollen, dark clouds.  My will insisted that I run despite the stubborn rain. Ear plugs streaming music into each … Continued

Hello world!

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Trails

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The heat was rushing in on the park’s playground, so the kids begged me to take them on the beaten path through the woods. The first long stretch was fun for them as they ran down the trails keeping within my sight. … Continued

Detour

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Life was puttering along.  We were immersed in mundane responsibilities, ministry through our local church and community, and wrapping up the end of the school year.  Fully engaged in the tasks at hand, we sat in a meeting across the … Continued

Race

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I set my pace to a jog and my feet began to pound the pavement.  Thoughts flooded my mind as I crossed the bridge and peered down at the river and landscape beneath.  I forged a path to the right … Continued

Parenting

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After stopping at the stop sign I turned the wheel to the left and then quickly to the right.  We began winding around the turn-about circle when my youngest belted out, “this is not the way to the smoothie shop”. … Continued

Stones

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Pain seems to be enveloping our world.  The devastation released in masses through shootings, bombings, knife violence and natural disasters are digesting the earth with intense appetite.  It is impossible to comprehend the depth of pain and wreckage. I don’t … Continued

Collecting

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“Collect moments/not things.” –unknownSince my return from the women’s retreat and the seasonal closure of our Community Bible Study prayer group, my soul has been quiet.  I have been relishing in God’s fulfillment of His promises. He is indeed faithful. … Continued

The Word

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“Be determined that your life is not going to be ruled by fear but by God’s Word.” –author unknownI was checking off lists in my mind.  Scurrying from the kitchen, the kids rooms and my bedroom, I was certain to … Continued

Faith

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“Christ within you is qualified to do all the things you think you’re unqualified to do.”  Jon AcuffI have been investigating prayer and faith deeply these days.  I am convinced that God’s plans for us are more extensive than we … Continued

Prayer

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I struggle with my adequacy as a mommy.  I struggle with my selfishness in marriage.  I struggle with my lack of perfection.  I struggle with discerning the voice of the Lord.  The list seems to lack an end. Journeying through … Continued

Conflicted

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By now, you, my readers, know that I endeavor to “keep it real”.  Henceforth, another peek behind the curtain of my humanity.Several days last week I was in an immense struggle to do everything as though I was doing it … Continued

Trustworthy

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A little over a week ago marked the one year anniversary of our daughter’s collision with fir.  Though our humanity may lure us to recapture all our thoughts of fear, snapshots of that night and the days that ensued and … Continued

Journey

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I dipped my toe into the water to check the temperature of the swim that lay ahead. I continued to journey out as the depths of the ocean met my body at higher elevations. I had reached a depth where … Continued

Unforeseen

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My middle boy’s two front teeth were begging for the end of their life.  My middle boy however, wanted to keep them in their birth home, not because he was particularly attached to these teeth but because he was afraid … Continued

Developing

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“Life is like photography.  We develop from the negatives.” (via Pinterest) Author unknown The morning began with several, though simple, mistakes.  No matter how simple or complex, mistakes of my own doing are hard to shake.  I use them to … Continued

Supernatural

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 “For we walk by faith not by sight.” 2 Corinthians 5:7 Sitting in my cushioned wooden chair in the corner of our study/craft room, the light had yet to illuminate the morning sky and my hand hurriedly scribbled through the … Continued

Transformation

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Nothing is of value if it isn’t rooted in prayer. Organizing a ministry or event, attempting to write, communicate with people, raise a family, adequately love my husband, or empathize with those God has placed in my sphere of influence; … Continued

Confidence

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“You can never cross the ocean unless you have courage to lose sight of the shore.” I found this quote on Pinterest and it resonated with an inner anguish I have been wading. Lord, I want to be used by you.  My … Continued

Plans

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“We can make our plans, but the LORD determines our steps.” Proverbs 16:9 NLT We all make plans, dream dreams, set goals and resolute to travel different paths.  Until we are in the thick of our plans being diverted, it … Continued

Indicator

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I recently read somewhere that “feelings are indicators, not dictators.”  I have wrestled with confusion as I prepare each week to summarize Bible study material on Fridays.  I have been begging God for more clarity on the details of how … Continued

Tantrum

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I was driving away from the building as he belted out from the depths of his lungs his anger and disgust with me.  My two older children scurried to the back seats, covered their ears and sunk their heads.  My … Continued

Determination

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Before tucking him in bed, he had begun to count the hours until his friend’s birthday party the next day.  The mix of his emotions derived from the invitation, being with his friend and trying something new to him; skating.  … Continued

Consequence

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The gust of wind and energy blew through the door amidst my two oldest children returning home from school.  Shoes flung off, jackets strewn on the floor and onto the couch of the living room, backpacks dropped by the Christmas … Continued

Thanksliving

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Tucked away in the small room, hidden behind the stage, a group of young girls and me discussed the facets of prayer.  Working through the A.C.T.S. acronym for prayer (Adoration, Confession, Thanksgiving and Supplication) we paused for quite some time … Continued

Focus

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His feet moved more swiftly than I remembered or had expected them to.  The football was tucked tightly under is right arm.  He out ran all those around him and the end zone was his for the taking. He looked … Continued

Preparation

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Peace blanketed the outside atmosphere.  The wind gingerly ushered through the leaves and complimented the dimly lit sky.  All were buried away inside their homes as the wait began.  I stood over my sink washing dishes, thinking through all our … Continued

Plan

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“God has a perfect plan for us.  He never does it all at once, just step by step because he wants to teach us to ‘walk by faith, not by sight’.” I read this quote somewhere on the Internet this … Continued

Mistakes

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I walked in just as he crossed his arms over his lunchbox, sunk his head into his arms and his shoulders began to shake.  I wanted to run over and hold him and tell him that no matter what happened … Continued

Leadership

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Leadership as a believer inevitably brings challenge.  Challenge to pursue Christ with excellence.  Challenge to inspire others to pursue that same accountability.  Challenge to stay in the word of God.  Challenge to consistently submit to His direction.  Challenge to embrace … Continued

Yours

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The Lord is always giving me opportunities to live out what I believe.  Sometimes the opportunities are easier to live out His love and His life, other opportunities are excruciating to remember that when Christ died, I died with Him; … Continued

Mundane

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I have been struggling with my attitude.  I know the Bible says to do all things without grumbling or questioning (Phil 2:14), but as a mom who has just spent the day cleaning the house for it to bear no … Continued

Qualified

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It is one thing for the Lord to plant a calling in your heart.  It is another thing to put that calling into motion.  I have seen His hand at work over the years weaving together His plan for my … Continued

Lost

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“Every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end.” Green Day I slugged my way through the day yesterday.  Simply put, the horizon had me feeling lost.  I took some time to watch a movie, color with my kids, listen … Continued

Titusville

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The wee hours of the morning consumed the dark sky. Our vehicle was quiet with half the family asleep and half the family fighting the onset of sleep. I directed the wheel north, but couldn’t help as the low hum … Continued

One

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I enjoy throwing themed parties.  I look forward to each of my children’s birthdays every year because it is an opportunity for me to work together with them on creating a party that suits his or her personality.  I have … Continued

Walking

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I know as a believer in Jesus Christ that it is my life’s purpose to honor Him with my time, that my actions manifest His character and my heart attitude exude the fruits of His spirit.  I am traversing the … Continued

Grace

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I hesitate to write on grace. It’s convoluted. To me. I still have considerable ground to gain before I fully grasp its depths; if I ever do. I have been taught over the years that it is G.od’s R.iches A.t C.hrist’s … Continued

Giants

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“O Lord, you have searched me and you know me.  You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.  You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my … Continued

Childhood

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It’s a conflicting thing to say goodbye to your childhood home.  My parents closed on our family’s home of 36yrs this past week. I understand that in today’s culture it is an anomaly for a family to extend roots in … Continued

Calling

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‎”Use what talent you possess; the woods would be very silent if no birds sang except those that sang best.” – Henry Van Dyke Studying Deuteronomy, the mantra that continues to land blast me is that God does not necessarily … Continued

Father’s Day

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Below are my husband’s thoughts on his best Father’s Day gift. It has been 3 months since my 8 year old daughter Addison sustained burns to her face and hand in a freak accident around a camp fire.  When the … Continued

Deuteronomy

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Our newly formed CBS prayer group is endeavoring to study the book of Deuteronomy this summer.  Though I am by no means a biblical scholar, or possess an extreme amount of wisdom, nor am I even close to being worthy … Continued

Redirection

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“Slaves, obey your earthly masters with fear and trembling, with a sincere heart, as you would Christ, not by the way of eye-service, as people-pleasers, but as servants of Christ, doing the will of God from the heart, rendering service … Continued

Diversion

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Matt left for church before me as he had some tasks to complete before service began.  I hastily encourage the kids to scurry to the car.  I opened the door to get into the van to find my oldest two … Continued

Conviction

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Stepping out in obedience, unaware of the winding road set before us, a friend continues to repeat, “where we are going, He has already been.” A group of us have continued to meet since early March to pray over the … Continued

Talents

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“By faith Sarah herself received power to conceive, even when she was past the age, since she considered him faithful who had promised.”  Hebrews 11:11 I have found myself, once again, in a place where the Lord is requiring more … Continued

Retaliation

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It was late and the occasional road lamp and toll booth, along with the headlights and taillights of other vehicles lit the way.  Weaving my way through traffic, my mind full of what the wee hours of the morning would … Continued

Shift

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Something has shifted. I spent the first few weeks of January setting my face on the Lord, the coming year and a few areas of my life needing refinement.  One request I made of the Lord was to turn my … Continued

Ripples

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“But you, O Lord, are a shield about me, my glory and the lifter of my head.”  Psalm 3:3 My girl and I have set our best attempt to traverse the unchartered territory before us.  The way she handles herself … Continued

Swinging

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Riding to my post-op doctor appointment Friday, I was anticipating my release into everyday activity.  I felt this same sense of excitement the beginning of the week that we believed Addisonwould be released to resume her regular quotidian schedule.  The … Continued

Home

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My thoughts have been full and mottled. Allowing the healing process to complete its course has allowed me much time to think, to digest the last month and talk to Jesus.  It seems comparison and what others may think plague … Continued

Encouragement

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Obviously the last several weeks have been a whirlwind of emotion and activity for our family.   We are convinced that the difference has been those of you who have stood in the gap for us through prayer and speaking Scripture … Continued

Undertow

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It seems we barely catch our breath before the next undertow pulls us back under.  Today is my fifth day of recovery from the emergency appendectomy.  Waking up, I felt I had finally turned a corner.  The pain was substantially … Continued

Appendectomy

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It was another late night as I closed my eyes, curled my body into fetal position and waited for our arrival once again to the Chippenham emergency room.  It had only been a little over two weeks since I made … Continued

Me

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“I am strong, courageous, and firm; I fear not and am not in terror, for it is the Lord my God who goes with me; He will not fail me or forsake me.”  Deuteronomy 31:6 Several people have sought me … Continued

Return

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Tomorrow morning will be our first return to MCV since Addison’s trauma a week and a half ago.  She knows that we are returning to visit the optometrist and the burn doctor to chart our future course.  What she isn’t … Continued

Lessons

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I was asked recently to document some of my favorite Bible verses.  Without much hesitation I thought of Philippians 4:5-7.  I opened my Bible to slowly digest each word once again, as I did I found it meeting me and … Continued

Addison

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Sovereign: having supreme rank, power, or authority (defined by dictionary.com) I have spent the last seven months studying the sovereignty of God through in-depth Bible study of 1&2 Peter, Philippians, Job and getting ready to tackle James next week.  Our … Continued

If

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“What if” threatens to take hold of my world and strangle the life from its existence. Sitting in my chair alongside several other youth, I listened as my 6th grade Sunday school teacher taught.  He began his lesson with, “what … Continued

Immutable

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Throwing my body into the comfy blue chair in the corner of our bedroom, I take a moment to quiet my stirring thoughts.  To gain some perspective I play the song “What do I know of holy” by Addison Road … Continued

Jehovah-Nissi

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“According to the grace of God given to me, like a skilled master builder I laid a foundation, and someone else is building upon it.  Let each one take care how he builds upon it.  For no one can lay … Continued

Aware

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I tend to look at the mess made in lieu of the memories in the making.  I have wished time away in order that I may begin pursuing my dreams.  I muse of silent days, an immaculate house, and owning … Continued

CBS

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The following is an email I sent out today to several women I know.  I felt compelled today to share it on my blog. My heart is heavy.  Heavy for many reasons.  It’s heavy for the women who are spiritually … Continued

Calculated

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I find that opportunities to serve the Lord are never lacking.  The difficulty comes in discerning not what is good, but what is best.  One of my spiritual gifts is meeting needs, therefore it is typical for me to see … Continued

Grace

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Bringing up a family should be an adventure, not an anxious discipline in which everybody is constantly graded for performance. – Milton R. Saperstein I sat across the table drinking in the confessions of a mom of multiple children, her … Continued

Sincerity

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The sun had yet to rise.  I sat in silence wondering.  The day ahead was a mystery.  My confidence existed out of necessity, but not from qualification or a since of belonging.  I was preparing to enter a school of … Continued

Heedful

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“ ‘Take care lest you forget the Lord your God by not keeping his commandments and his rules and his statutes, which I command you today, lest, when you have eaten and are full and have built good houses and … Continued

Wreaths

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“Satan dines on what we withhold from God.”  Francis Frangipane Timidly Lord, I loom your throne and humbly ask not if I am withholding anything from you, but what I am withholding from you?  In your revelation, I know my … Continued

Conqueror

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“In all things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.”  Romans 8:37 The elliptical is a place I get lost in thought.  Earlier this week, my thoughts began to trail off into the depths of the undergoing … Continued

Allegiance

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I get lost in the pursuit of the lures of this world and the opinions of those around me.  This morph doesn’t happen in a moment but in a disguised progression.  My desire is to be found lost in all … Continued

Safe

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Last night, my baby boy reminded me of a lesson recently learned. In the wee hours of the morning, my dream tapered off to the sound of thumping feet, a distorted cry and a growling cough approaching my direction.  I sat … Continued

Student

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I am in a season of tenaciously searching the heart of God on several issues.  My senses have been overwhelmed by the variety of information and insight I am digesting, which has lead to my hesitation in writing.  It seems … Continued

Training

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Frequently the Holy Spirit has been convicting my heart through the interactions I have with my children. I have been trying to teach my oldest boy how he is the example for his younger brother.  His younger brother imitates most … Continued

Toddler

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After devouring his lunch, I scoop my two year old into my arms and tell him it is time for a nap.  He struggles against my embrace and tells me “I don’t want it.”  I replied that it isn’t about … Continued

Intentional

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I have been in a quiet place with the Lord.  My spirit is still and I remain planted in His presence…waiting…listening. Lord, what do you have for me this new year?  What do you desire for our family to intentionally … Continued

2011

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What I’ve learned this year… God has placed me in an incredibly loving, gifted and unique body of believers Be prepared to say yes to the next step of obedience Situations, things and people I thought I was ill equipped … Continued

Job

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Drudging myself off the pallet of which I slept on the night before in the same room with my three children, my thoughts began to mount and the frustration of the mundane tasks ahead consumed my attitude. All I wanted … Continued

Still

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“Be still and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10 This has been my place of solace the last few days. My soul has quieted itself. There have been few thoughts to surface, and fewer questions asked. As I have … Continued

Real

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I have been frustrated and confused with the pattern God has chosen as the tapestry of my life. I have spent a chunk of the weekend expressing my rawest thoughts and emotions to Him. Instead of relying on all that … Continued

Pray

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“All I can do is pray.” This is a statement I have heard myself mutter to those around me in need and a statement from the company I keep when they are at a loss for words and incapacitated from … Continued

Disappointment

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I don’t know why God allows the things He does. I don’t understand why disappointment seems to be His chosen path for my being molded into His likeness. I speculate that it could be because I place too much emphasis … Continued

Reasonableness

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I have spent time and energy ciphering through recent transactions that have taken place in my life. I have been perplexed by the blindside. After projecting my perspective, my emotions and my rights, my spirit has slowly and stubbornly yielded … Continued

Habakkuk

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“Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the … Continued

Resistance

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Running forward with all my might, I feel the elastic tube pull tightly around my waist. My partner has his feet planted on the ground, body in squat position as he uses his strength to grasp hold of the hand … Continued

Careless

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Throughout the course of my life I have been on the receiving end of someone’s careless and piercing words. These times have caused me to become introspective. My flesh has wanted to lash out and induce a battle of words. … Continued

Passion

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Scouring my heart, thoughts and soap boxes I unearth my primary passion to be equipping believers with the tools they need to create and develop an affectionate relationship with Christ that digs deep roots into His word. I desire to … Continued

Calculated

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I had a recent scare with the health of one of my family members. After receiving the initial call that the doctor did not like what he was seeing on the EKG and further testing needed to be done, I … Continued

Approval

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Throughout the course of my life, I have wrestled with what others think of me. As an adult, I spend time concerned about what people think about me as a mom, do the they believe me to be authentic in … Continued

Predator

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“Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.” 1 Peter 5:8b Looking up “adversary” on dictionary.com, it translates “an enemy who fights determinedly, continuously, and relentlessly.” I had an experience recently that left me … Continued

Privilege

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Loads of laundry spill off the bed, bags lay open of winter clothes picked through as the fall clothes wait to be stored away. The bedrooms that were clean Saturday are now a mine of stuff scattered. Working on interrupted … Continued

Stability

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My emotions are soft and pliable today. I sit down to reach out to Him for stability. Abba, my heart unexpectedly aches for the complicated decisions brought upon me in this life. Use this experience to force me to see … Continued

Pensive

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Pensive today about His higher ways… Within the last few weeks I know of a family in our community who lost their 4 month old to SIDS. Yesterday, a 7.5yr old little girl lost her battle to cancer. Today, our … Continued

Success

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Recently I was asked to define success. I have taken a few days to ponder what I believe success to be, what the world believes success to be and what the Bible has to say about success. Dictionary.com defines success … Continued

Presence

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My youngest boy cries out in the night. I half-heartedly meander my way to his room. One eye open, sweeping my hair to the side of my face, I sit down next to his bed and begin rubbing his back. … Continued

Meditation

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Psalm 19:14 “Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer.”He remained fever free throughout the day. I got my two older children off to … Continued

Waiting

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“Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” Psalm 27:14I’m in a place of waiting on the Lord. I have been in the habit of placing a few of my concerns and ambitions at … Continued

Addiction

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I have been thinking about the concept of addiction. Is it wrong to be addicted to anything but Jesus Christ? How does an addiction initiate and eventually develop roots? Am I addicted to anything but Jesus Christ? I hanker to … Continued

Transition

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Transition: passage from one state or stage to another; the period of time during which something changes from one state or stage to another (dictionary.com) Change: to make the form, nature, content, future course, etc., of (something) different from what … Continued

Equipped

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Struggling today to choose His words and His ways over mine. Therefore, I am making a purpose to “Not be conformed to this world, but to be transformed by renewing my mind” Romans 12:2 as well as to “purify my … Continued

Inheritance

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I am in the process of studying the book of 1 Peter with a group of ladies from my community. Peter spends the first half of chapter 1 addressing hardship. Working through chapter 1 and answering given questions, I discovered … Continued

Satisfaction

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“The more abundantly the benefits of civilization come streaming our way, the emptier our life becomes. With all its wealth and power, it only shows that the human heart, in which God has put eternity, is so huge that all … Continued

Anxious

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The air is cool and calming. The sun gently shines through the clouds. My friend and I plant our chairs on the gritty sand and lean back to soak in the sounds of the ocean. We spend a bulk of … Continued

Supplication

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I grew up in a private school through Eighth grade. One of the consistent disciplines our principal would lead us in was Scripture memory (thank you Mr. Ferguson for investing Scripture into my life and for teaching me the value … Continued

Bootcamp

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About three months after I delivered our now 21 month old baby, I consistently began to take a class at the gym entitled “bootcamp”. The name is not misleading. It has been a class that I often found myself at … Continued

Empty

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I’m not sure how often any of you find yourself “stuck in your head” or if I keep company with crickets, but this is where I find myself. It’s like being in the middle of an exercise regiment and your … Continued

New

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I anticipate the beginning of a new school year, not because my kids begin school (actually that happens to be my least favorite part), but because of the promise of new beginnings. Freshly sharpened pencils, untouched boxes of crayons, the … Continued

Image

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What does it mean to be a reflection of Christ’s image? This question has been floating around in my mind this past week. I sat around the table with several friends earlier this week chatting about life with the absence … Continued

Lemonade

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The wind beats against my face. My sunglasses protect my eyes from the wisps of hair. My left arm props up the left side of my head as I partially lean out the window and drive. My body aches, from … Continued

El Sali

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The colors illuminate the scenery, the rush of the water creates a white noise of excitement and the obstacles to maneuver are sure to stir exhilaration in any child. I think my almost two year old boy who has yet … Continued

Transparent

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When looking at ministry, I was recently challenged to discover and document the things that I love and the things that I loath. From that list, I was instructed that I should be able to derive the messages God has … Continued

Uninhibited

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Baited breath, a whirl of emotions, and fists locked tight, I come before you. I will my hands before you and ask that you pry my fingers open that I might live open handed. Ann Voskamp’s words haunt me as … Continued

Strawberry-banana

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“Comparison kills contentment”. The speaker’s words linger in the air and make way for my mind to wonder. I think about the ways I have learned this truth over the last thirty years. The breakthrough for me came about a … Continued

Reflection

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“Therefore, as you received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk in Him, rooted and built up in Him and established in the faith, just as you were taught, abounding in thanksgiving.” Colossians 2:6-7 ESV I am still sifting through the … Continued

Beautiful

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“He makes everything beautiful in His time.” Ecclesiastes 3:11 Eyelids are heavy. Thoughts are groggy. The van hums with snores and a children’s movie. My eyes begin to wonder and I am faced with a truth my youth pastor often … Continued

Amidst

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This is life he says, learn to enjoy it, laugh at your mistakes and move on. My brother and I had a brief conversation this morning and he was sharing with me some advice he had given a friend. What … Continued

El

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Squeezing some time from our satiated conference schedule, I purposed to make my way to the prayer room where I could meet with Him. Slowly pulling the door outward, I slipped inside. The deliberation of my breath, tears trickling to … Continued

Flowers

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“The best days of my life were when the flowers grew wild.” from Tending Roses by Lisa WingateHis arms flew through the air, his voice repeatedly changed octaves and his little body proved restless. Ten minutes on and ten minutes … Continued

Jeremiah

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Bags are packed, errands run, emails made, things left in semi order and my spirit steps out in faith. A few months back, the Lord provided an all expense paid opportunity for me to attend a conference this weekend for … Continued

Rest

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Sitting beside and across from two friends from high school this weekend, we gabbed and reconnected about life. We inquired what each person was learning, what life stages they were navigating, and we attempted to derive what the Lord was … Continued

Feeble

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“So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as … Continued

Storm

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Knowing that a storm was brewing and I needed to run a few errands before it arrived, I gathered the kids, buckled everyone in and darted down the street. As I got to the main road that would either take … Continued

Docile

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As we drove through the mountain scenery this past weekend, I rolled down the window to breath in the fresh, crisp, cool air. As the wind batted against my face, my thoughts whispered to the Lord, how did I get … Continued

Authority

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Sitting here tonight, it is on my mind to revisit a devotional I shared with our group while in Guatemala. Therefore, for those of you who were there, I apologize for the redundancy, for all of us, I pray that … Continued

Engage

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Recently, I listened to a friend confess the innovative ways she uses the time she has with her children. She digressed with, I guess in some ways I may overcompensate as I work full time and I simply want to … Continued

Audible

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Riding along the road today I glance in the rearview mirror and I scour the terrain that lay before me. My thoughts are racing and the confession that plays over and over again in my mind remains “Lord, I just … Continued

Gideon

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I lay folded up at Yahweh’s feet tonight singing the lyrics to a song by Passion that causes me not only to reminisce moments in my walk with Him from the past, but that indicate my current place with Him … Continued

Idolatry

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Idols are liars and don’t trust anyone who doesn’t walk with a limp.These are two phrases that have been resonating with me today. Often as a believer, it is easy for me to declare that I don’t have idols in … Continued

Warfare

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I’ve gotten it backwards…again. My typical routine is to make a plan of action and then ask God to bless it. This weekend He convicted me of the perverted nature of this habit. The plan should be prayer first, then … Continued

Discipline

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I struggle. The tasks seem daunting and the finish lines seem to be lost in oblivion; along with my gusto. The last two weeks have given their best to get the best of me. Without my permission, the Lord has … Continued

Flourish

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Though summer isn’t what it once was when I was young, and as strange as it seems, the heat is much more excruciating here in Virginia than I ever remember it in Florida, I look forward to it. As a … Continued

Shelter

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“Hear my cry, O God, listen to my prayer; from the end of the earth I call to you when my heart is faint. Lead me to the rock that is higher than I, for you have been my refuge, … Continued

Visible

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I am once again overwrought by the pain that seems to drench the lives of those around me. Someone struggles with the loss of a child, another with a tumultuous pregnancy, another confronting the possibility of foreclosure, another bearing the … Continued

Sufficient

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My thoughts have been concentrated on the idea of sufficiency. Sufficient is defined, “adequate for the purpose; enough; competent.” My husband and I have been in the process of pioneering the implementation of a ministry at our church. It isn’t … Continued

Affirmation

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“Unless the Lord builds the house, those who build it labor in vain.” Lord, thank you for this firm reminder that it is you who builds and molds our family. All you ask of Matt and I as parents are … Continued

Intentional

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So, I have been thinking and reading and mulling over some transitions I hope to see overhaul my persona. Truth be known, they are changes that have needed to happen for some time, but as a natural response, I cower … Continued

Juxtaposition

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“Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone.” Colossians 4:6While in Guatemala this past January, one of our leaders gave a challenge to us before beginning the day. … Continued

Relinquish

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“And again, ‘I will put my trust in him’. And again, ‘Behold, I and the children God has given me.” Hebrews 2:13I was reminded today of a lesson I learned shortly after my middle son was born. When we brought … Continued

Omniscient

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Concluding our year long study of Luke, I was reminded of a principal that I have often learned time and again over the years. It is a difficult lesson and one that wills more maturity than I have wanted to … Continued

Risk

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My son has been riding his bike with training wheels for quite some time. Early this fall he set out to conquer a hill in our neighborhood (no folks, not our driveway). The hill picks up speed fast. Almost to … Continued

Love

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I can remember the first time I told my husband I loved him. We were in college and had been dating for several months. I knew if I said it, I needed to mean it. I haven’t ever been someone … Continued

Broken

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My junior year of high school I was sitting in a life skills class taking a survey to identify my weaknesses and strengths. I remember approaching my teacher to tell her how frustrating tests like this were for me because … Continued

Supposition

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I have been thinking about Peter’s denial of Jesus and I would like to propose a different supposition than the popular interpretation. I am not claiming the following to be infallible thought as the truth remains that we could never … Continued

Audacious

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Often times I argue with God about His calling on my life. I debate with Him about the fact that I don’t possess the list of qualities that would make me an efficent spokesperson for His kingdom. I have implored … Continued

Exposed

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As I continue to brush shoulders with the people God has placed in my life, I am incessantly reminded of how we are all jars of clay. We each have an ultimate destiny God created us for, the question hovers … Continued

Servant

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In preparation for Easter I have been thinking about the events the lead up to Jesus’ death and resurrection. In John 13 it relates how in the midst of the Feast of the Passover Jesus rose from His seat, set … Continued

Accountability

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“For if they fall, one will lift up his fellow. But woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up!” Ecclesiastes 4:10 ESV I am besieged by the fullness of my life. … Continued

Counteractive

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“She opens her mouth with wisdom and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue.” Proverbs 31:26 ESV Oh how I long for the above scripture to embody me, but the hard truth is that description is a long shot … Continued

Release

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In high school I was part of our youth group’s drama team. There was one particular drama that etched itself in my mind and has lingered for me to draw from its contents on occasion. The scene originates with a … Continued

Duplicity

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My biggest enemy is myself. I get overwhelmingly frustrated with myself on a consistent basis. I long to be a mirror image of Christ and I do realize that this will be a recurring process until the day I live … Continued

Big

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I sing songs about how great God is and how the extravagance of His love has no boundaries. Growing up in a Christian home I have read and heard stories from Genesis to Revelation that speak over and over again … Continued

Necessary

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Though sometimes painful, the necessities of life are inevitable. As I was sitting in the ER Monday night with my oldest child awaiting the nurse to place an IV in her arm, I got a practical glimpse of my relationship … Continued

Faithful

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“One who is faithful in a very little is also faithful in much, and one who is dishonest in a very little is also dishonest in much.” Luke 16:10 This verse has been resonating with me over the course of … Continued

Defined

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Who do I say He is?Not with my words, but with my choices. Who do I say He is to my family by the way I spend my time? Who do I say He is to those around me by … Continued

Grateful

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What does it mean to be grateful? By definition it means “warmly or deeply appreciative of kindness or benefits received”. Thus merges the question, is gratefulness only expressed with words, whether spoken or written? In Luke 17:11-19 (ESV) ten lepers … Continued

Surrender

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As of late, a friend of mine has had me thinking about the difference between being committed to Christ and being surrendered to Him. Some of you may wonder why it even matters. I understand that it could seem a … Continued

Jealous

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As you know by now, our community Bible study group is working through the book of Luke. Two weeks ago we were combing through the parables of the lost sheep, the lost coin and the prodigal son in Luke 15. … Continued

Shepherd

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As of late, I have been contemplating who the Lord is to me. I lay down to fall asleep last night praying about what to write today and I believe the Lord uttered the word Shepherd. I wasn’t certain as … Continued

Susceptible

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“God wasn’t at work producing the circumstances Joseph wanted; God was at work in bad circumstances producing the “Joseph” that God wanted.” – John Ortberg My middle school youth pastor posted this quote as His facebook status today and it … Continued

Faithfulness

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As a wife, a mother, a friend, and a housekeeper (along with my other responsibilities in being healthy physically, emotionally and spiritually) I struggle with faithfulness. Last year I read about faithfulness from a different perspective, than what I had … Continued

Enough

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Enough: adequate for the want or need; sufficient for the purpose or to satisfy desire (dictionary.com) Often the last several weeks I have heard the Lord gingerly asking, am I enough? I have continued to carry on with the menial … Continued

Resolve

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I have often heard that the definition of crazy is to repeatedly do the same thing, the same way and expect different results. Although I have heard this adage copious times throughout my lifetime, it struck a nerve recently. Like … Continued

Manure

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“If I could only fly I’d go up and look down from the sky So I could see the bigger picture And Lord if I could sit with You At Your feet for an hour or two I’m sure I’d … Continued

Perseverance

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One of my weaknesses can be “follow through”. I tend to generate creative ideas, borrow a book from the library in hopes to enrich my knowledge or heighten my imagination, and end up with the last few chapters unread or … Continued

Trust

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I am not known for the spiritual gift of mercy. However, when someone close to me is intensely struggling, I tend to immediately cast aside everything I know to be truth to begin deriving a plan that will fix this … Continued

Perspective

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The economy this last year has affected our family as it has so many other individuals and families. Though we are well and have not been effected as tragically as most, it crushed me. My spirit was broken. How was … Continued

Hungry

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“Hungry, I come to you. For I know You satisfy. I am empty, but I know Your love does not run dry. So I wait for you.” (lyrics from “Hungry” by Kathryn Scott) While in Guatemala a small group of … Continued

Awakening

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Below is the email I sent out to our group and thus explains the title of this blog. Friends, I shared with the group early in the week while in Guatemala that the song “Awakening” by Chris Tomlin plagued my … Continued

Obedience

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Why the blog? Why the title? What am I doing in blogger world? Along with approx. 60 other people I embarked on a mission to Guatemala on New Years Eve and returned on January 9th. Once reaching the states, I … Continued